27 April 2010

spoke too soon

Well remember a few days ago when I was talking about being pregnant, lets just pretend that never happened...
Had a miscarriage yesterday. 12 weeks.
Just thought I would use the blog to let everyone know so I can hopefully avoid it face to face as much as possible.
I'm actually doing better than I would have thought I would. I kinda had some vague symptoms and had to wait a bit to see a doctor and then it all happened on it's own. So with the waiting time I kinda came to terms with it.

These two have helped immensely without even knowing it.
And of course Brad. I can't even express how much. I love you B.

When the first symptoms stared I knelt down to pray and the words just wouldn't come to me. I knew at that moment the baby was gone. I prayed for strength and comfort and have received it tenfold. My usual pessimistic attitude has turned glass half full and I feel quite peaceful. Very very sad, but peaceful at the same time. I feel loved by my husband, by my family, by my friends, and by my Father in Heaven.

23 comments:

Sarah C said...

Oh Whitney.... I am soooo sorry! Eveyone's situation is differnt, but I do feel for you. Heavenly Father really does have our best intrest at heart, in time this will all make sense. Hugs!

Susie said...

Whit I don't know what to say... face to face or on the blog. I do wish I could be there or do something. Know that I am thinking of you. Kids sometimes are biggest trial and our greatest strength. Love you

Allison said...

Love your honesty, hope you continue to feel that peace. Keeping you in our thoughts and prayers.

PS: I made you a hat, send me your address so I can mail it to you:)

Tisha said...

I'm so sorry. Your strength is amazing!

LindsayB said...

still thinking of you. and still here for you whenever.

Kinsey said...

Oh Whit...my heart hurts for you and your little family. You're in our thoughts and prayers.

Selina said...

I am so very sorry to read this.

Nancy said...

I am sorry..

Jaime said...

So sorry to hear that, thinking of you!

Mindi said...

Just know you have great friends who are here for you, whether they are face to face, or through the blog world. Vent all you want! I'm so sorry for your loss, but I'm glad your glass is full after being half. You are right, the Lord is here and you will get through this and let it be a trial of good!

Life Is Golden said...

I just wanted you to know that I think you are such a beautiful girl... inside and out.
I'll be thinking of you...

Lindsay said...

I am sorry! Know you are in my prayers.

Just Rhonda said...

ah i'm sorry!!!

Brittany said...

miss whit I hope everything went okay for you today..you are in my thoughts and prayers. Just know that I am just around the corner or a phone call away. love you

Christal said...

You are amazing and an example to me. I love ya. Hope today went okay ttys. when your ready lets get out and do something.

Amy said...

Whitney I'm so sorry... thinking of you.

Melissa said...

That's not good news, i'm sorry.

KellyLady said...

Oh Whit and Brad :( Our hearts ache for you...we've had that experience and empathize completely. Our best advice is to let yourselves grieve when you feel the need to and take lots of joy and comfort in your boys. We love you. Let us know if you need anything.

Jacklyn said...

Whit I missed the last post and then I tuned in for this sad news. I'm so sorry Whit. It's funny how bad things can teach us things if we let them. Like how much you love your kids and your husband, not to mention the man upstairs (k that sounded funny) I wish I could do something for ya but I'll keep you in our prayers. Miscarriages are a weird sort of emotional roller coaster cause it's better off for the baby but then it's just this feeling of loss for something that you barely even had. So sorry Whit, love ya

lynz said...

thinking of you and praying for you too chickee!

Shelley said...

Oh Whitney I'm so sorry. I just read this last night and can't stop thinking about you! My prayers are with you. (I miss our "sewing" nights!)

claudiabridge said...

I am thankful you are at peace. Thank you for sharing your feelings of faith. You have helped me. love ya.

Jen & George Scott said...

Oh Whit, I am so sorry. I haven't been able to get on blogs lately, so I am sorry this took me so long. I really am sorry, I know how hard that is. I hope you are ok and wish nothing but happier times in the months ahead!!! Love ya!!!